Stephanie wells is 40 year old. gosh....she seriously look 25, maybe a bit older if my babe is 25.....and that's becoz lesbian doesnt get old. look at ellen degeneres, she is 47, and she jsut look same age as stephanie wells, who look like 25....
and how can she not be a lesbian right?! gosh, this is driving me nut. she jsut said a person's sexuality and marriage status is two unrelated thing, which is exactly the mystery of it.
gosh......it is wonderful....

my life has been very boring. there is somehting about making friend that tire me out. I want to go out, i just wanna breathe, away from all these people and those faces i made. it make me feel like a loser, i have this contempt for people in OC, they are newport bitches, and there is no way i can connect to them. and i scorn all riches like a communist, and i think all those bitches should go to concentration camps.....i m such a nazi.....i m such a extreme right , yet i m a liberal....i hate rich people, those fucker. i hate rich people, i wanna go to south coast plaza and tell everyone to screw themselves. i have so much hatred in me that i feel isolated. i hate people who hate other ppl too. but I don hate myself no more, i have no feeling about myself, she live separately from me, i m even closer to my babe then myself. i don know who she is. she dies, i killed her and got over those dark times. she created all these, and i become strong and kill her very humanly, i jsut killed her right off, even though she had tortured me for years. and now i don know where i m. i m all optimistic and hopeful, i m all driven and hardworking, i m all saying hi and think people are good, i m all making money and settling stuff, i m good, i m ok, i m fine, i m tired, i m hungry, i m thristy, i m never sad. it is a taboo word, i can never be depressed, that is not right, that is a ghost , a burnt on my skin that i cover it well, i cant even slow down, i need to work, i m paranoid, jsut to show that i can stand the stress, jsut to show that i had recovered. it is a live that goes so fast, i cant stop, i m always runnig. i wanna have a 4.0, i wanna have a nice dinner, i wanna watch movie, i wanna have sex, i wanna buy a new skirt, i m always looking forward, always having pyurpose, yet it is all so empty. it is all so empty when life reduced to life itself, and i m finally living, or surviving, i cant even tell. i m functioning, and i never take it for granted, i m functioning, it take such painful step to get to here......and i m not happy. i m not sad, by god, i wont be sad again, but i m not happy. i don know watI wan. it is a psychological circle that i try to break through.....life is particularly hard in the states, it is the first time i ever admit it. it is so hard, thing are so different and problematic, things i hate so much yet they are exalted, things i love best but i never get to see...things are so disappointing, i m so disappointing. i believe in myself like a religion, coz that is the only thing i can believe it, push me forward, make me wanna live. live for life itself, even though you have no purpose.