post L word trauma talking:
sometimes i wonder maybe the biggest bet in my life does not worth it.
sometimes i wonder maybe i should not be with the person i m with now, because that person can not relate to me in so many ways .
but...or is it jsut better to having someone at the back and then i will be stable and have energy to explore in my own way.
and sometimes i wonder why m i in a relationship now, this relationship, with a person totally cannot understand me.
and if i have to end something, i don know. i will go to long beach and not LA, and maybe i will be a bitch that way, maybe i will be better.
just thinking, coz there is really nothing more important than having my ownn life at this age.
i just try not to do anything i will regret.
it doesn mean i will give up for my parent, no way. i jsut mean, get someone else, but not a breeder.
htat sucks isnt it.
nothing happen between us. really, don start panic eda, if you read this, i wont throw htat back to you, haha, i remember you say i shouldnt leave until you find someone.
but nah....i day dream a lot
maybe i really should take some time off and save money and go to carribean and sun tan nude, then i will have sex with a french woman who is white and hot and doesnt speak english, then i will sit under the sun and feed paris pigeon.
yes, i m a romanticist.