It sucks so much
the only thing i use to energize myself is hugging my big baby, and having moment alone
well, i cant have the second one with all these noise in the house
and i cant have the first one either.
got caught for a split second and mum ask me why do i do that.
why on earth cant i do that!
i can hug anyone i want, i can kiss anyone i want, i can fuck anyone i want!
and she has no idea, what life is like when you work 31.5 hour a week, studying your final at the same time, and dig out the teeny weeny 4 hours of your free time to entertain my mum, by shopping and afterward continue walking in my store for the rest of the day, or driving to unknown places, where ppl honk me when i dont know which lane to change and started panic.
and !!!
she ask me why, do i need a hug!
why mum! why mum do you need to go out with me! why mum do you need to come here! why mum do you need to touch my hair when you want to!
why do you hold dad's hand when you go out. why do you do that~!
she then tell me not to seduce people, not to sleep in the same room when she went back to singapore. or she will be worrying about me everyday. coz i m jsut 20 years old and i shouldnt be having sex until i m 26, in another word, i htink, married.
so i got this huge lecture about no sex and no touching.
jsut becoz i needed a frigging hug. just an energizing friendly hug.
this is all i need.
why cant i fucking need a hug!