so I brought my baby into my rock star's office. my baby was like desperately bored, while we are talking about adrienne rich and female sexuality, well at least she learn a new word called muff diving for oral sex.
anyway, i couldnt sleep last night becoz my rock star asked me whether i wanna house sit for her, and i was like, DANG! why do i need to go back to hk!!!!

she wore this long black shirt/jacket thing with grey pants, and she wore this super cute pink lace up boots. she had some different kind make up on that make her look really feminine, maybe is her lipstick, it was darker than usual. she wore blue eye shadow everyday, which match really well with blue eyes.

she is en voyage during the break, 21 dec to 4 jan, and i couldnt help her. she was like, "coz I remember you say you guys have no privacy in your house, so maybe you guys can spend time together in my house." and i was like, totally melt.
argh!!!i wanna live in stephanie's house!!!!!i wanna go to stephanie's house and read her books and play with her dogs and know what is the color of her bath towels!!!! it is such big bummer!!!now when i go to hong kong i will never forget my opportunity cost! my opportunity cost is way more than my air ticket , like, your rock star ask you to house sit for her, wat do you think?
it is horrible that everything seems so like a crush, and it is horrible to be gazing into my bedroom ceiling jsut to picture what her house will be like. ...argh, this is driving me crazy.
how can the nicest person i ever met in the OC, could possibly be my rock star, how to handle this, man, this is crazy.

this is the point of a crush where you are not sure after all these conversation, you guy are friends. and it is jsut horrible that, before this part, we are definitely teacher and student. and it is even more horribel that i will be writing so much about her on this blog, like i really mean to have a crush. and it is horrible that intellectual crush is way more powerful than any other crush. and it is so horrible that it feels so good to feel so horrible. IT is horrible that the semester has to end, it is horrible that i m back into the spiral of departure, where i only develop love to a place when i m about to leave it.