my Dairy

love is a battlefield

Monday, January 10, 2005

let get this going, i get form xiya's blog,
_anger.
1.do you have a quick temper? i apparently don have temper
2.what do you do when you're mad?saying a lot f words, and then cry
3.what's the worst thing you've done when you're mad?throw things
4.if you can take back time, would you have done this still?whynot
5. ever made anyone cry when you were mad?i don thinik so
6.ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?too weak, attempted pushing someone
7.do you curse when you're mad? all the time
_cry.
8.when was the last time you really cried your heart out?last last last week
9.ever cried to sleep?no, coz i need to stop crying 3 hour before sleep to avoid puffy eyes
10. ever cried on your friend's shoulder?yes, frds are great
11. ever cried over the opposite sex?yes definitely
12.do you cry when you get an injury?almost feel like tearing when i fell too bad on the snow
13.do certain songs make you cry?oh yea
14. can you make yourself cry?anytime
_pain.
15.what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?being not able to help myself from decadence
16.what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?trying to be a slut
17.what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else? hurting my mum for wat i m doing, and stilil doing.
18.how depressed can you get?suicidal
19.do you inflict pain on yourself?last time used to scratch myhself with a penknife
_happy.
20. are you normally a happy person?no, not normal,, not happy
21. what can make you happy?i don know
22. do you wish you were happier?yes.
23. what makes you the happiest? will itbe too much if i say alcohol and sex?nah, i just like to be with friends.
24. is being happy overrated?don understand
25. what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?yes, that keep me sane
26. can music make you happy?no
_love.
27.have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?i believe i can die for god.
28.did you ever love a person, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?yes
29. ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?still going on
30.has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to?american say i love you anytime anywhere anyhow, so duh.
_hate.
31.who do you actually hate?yes, and i hate myself most
32.ever made a hate list?no
33.have you ever been on a hate list?i m always on my own hate list
34. are you a mean bully?i m always the bullied
35.do you hate any one that breaks your heart?i hate ppl who betray my trust, and honestly i m still hating some ppl, some gross ppl who tell secret right outside my door! i wish he see this.

man, i realise i m such a problematic person, scary. watever, i should get back to packing up