i came back another later, nooke is still there.
i sit there for a long time, turnin gmy head make sure nooke is still ard
and then, 2 min ago, i look back, and she is gone.

i looked at some relaly sweet photos today, too sweet to be true in the real world, not to say to be true in my own world. sometimes it make me feel lonely watching ppl kissing, so graceful and harmonious, and the message below it was a little I LUV U, cliche as it would be, but there is a screaming tenderness in it....and......well, htat image is set as wallpaper in my head now, i think i feel a little jealous.....a little defected......a little too far from my own sweetness....though it might be, jsut a phonecall away....

my friend told me" good for you, you just find yourself . "
yeah, that is exactly how i feel now,it feel so natural. nature is personal. i htink it is natural to brush teeth before breakfast, and it bacome unnatural if you brush teeth after breakfast, and vise vesa. there are some ppl in the world getting divorce again and again, getting pregnant and aborted again and again, yet they forbid some ppl who never get married b4, therefore never get divorced b4 and cant have children to abort ,to get married. I think it is not right.