you never know the importance of holiday b4 you start school. i was sooooo happy for this weekend. man, i love weekend!!!

somehow i jsut wanna make someone's life better, but i cant do anything. i saw the scars in her hands and knees and thighs...heard her moan about painful spine, heard her saying that she is gonna collapse anytime, life means nothing but one burden after another...ppl are pushing her up the wall,family and boss.....day after day, work and study, earn money , pay the bills, being alone,missing someone until frustrated, and she can do nothing for all this, neither that person do. no body support her in her family,no other colleague is doing the same amt of work as her, the professor in school wont give her a better grade if you working full time and studying full time,and i know she has all the reason for this grumbling......why is life so tough for her le? we are all just..ordinary ppl....why m i so pampered.......somehow i will wanna trade something from her to me, like, sharing it, but this is dumb, i really can do nothing. being a cheerleader is not my job, i m not good at it, i cant console ppl well,i cant even be there......and i usually get emotionally affected after listening to somebody's agony. yet, she tell me, all this are gonna pass,she talked about the future, love the way she talked about it, as if it is really gonna come true.

i never see a gal as tough as her. i wanna be like her,but i know i ll never be...