i m in school, freaking out for the public speech class in like an hour later. damn it, you know i cant even give a proper speech in canto or mandarin, you saw how was i during oral,i either mumble to myself, or i just couldn stand properly, or stand still. how? it is really freaking me out!!!help me!!!!!lam gor!!!how ah? i have to "talk maths" ( hope you get it.)with ang moh le, sigh.....

anyway, the urge of posing this is that i eventually found this word to sum up the previous entry about edison chen's gf...
i m just possessive.
i htot that was about self esteem, but not really, it is possessiveness, that make me feel threatening, when my partner is popular, like way too popular with ppl...
and well, i must say, a little bit of jealousy too....for not getting wat he is getting, you know, fame, and popularity, and the good look. well, but after much thots, if i m really gonna be jealous, i should jealous about i don have a gf like me, but he does....well....this line kinda contradicting....hee...ya, that's true though...but i have more then a bf......and i m more than a gf