I jsut realise my stressor is the house, like i feel so stressed out in this house. every minute i am pretending to be soemone i m not. until the point where i forgot who I am. like, like you wash off your make up and you look at the mirror, you cant even find your eyes to look back at you, because your face is blank and white.
I hate men, for now. I think i am jsut very persplex by the situation in my house right now. man not doing anything at all, the woman have to work and take care of them parasitic creatures. and they still dare have that fucking attitude n have comment on anything. how can men so disgusting! how can those men in this house be so disgusting. i know it is very political incorrect to generalize, and honestly, i love men, thye are so much easier than women. but the two men in my house are jsut dead bad example, and if you wanna curse me for my generalization, curse them, for setting up worst examples. i dont even greet them now, well one of them, i dont greet the older one, coz he jstu totally doesnt respond. and that is their to greet when the person doesnt wanna recieve it. it is a gesture, and somehow it get tiring, like good morning uncle, and he doesnt even look at you. what is his problem. how can people not be gay if they happen to be their sister or daughter, how can girls grow up like that trust men, how can she rely on any men, if all these male figures are so pathetic. and so far, i think men are jsut horrifying, that other boy i stayed with back up there, and these boy and man i stay with here, they are jstu downright parasitical, i don know why. i think my dad is such a good man, liek he is the only man i wanna defense. and i had known real good male friends and they are wonderful. and i know horrible man who only wanna fuck me, and in a way, they are still better, at least they cook their own food, they work at the garage, they do the christmas lights, and mend the bathroom.
how can she live in a family like that!