so my past feel day is so much about lucas....
we went out, watch incredibles, not very nice, and he actually get his hair gel up and wear a shirt. and then we went to get a caramel apple cider, and then we went to Target to get a video game. so we end up going to his house to play Halo 2. for once you hear stella kwok is playing video game. so i was literally "in bed" with lucas,killing aliens and being comrade, with light on and door close. i seriously wonder wat his mum was thinking about us, coz i was watching survivor with her in the living room a lil bit before. then we get so tired playing game and we started talking. and we actually talk about the all time interesting topic-SEX. he keep asking me question about my sexual experience and we went on to discuss about my virginity. i wonder wat is so interesting about my virginity, and apparently i don have much to tell him about my sexual experience anyway. ( he doesn have much to tell me either).
so, many time he jsut look at me and smile, like, it is kinda scandalous to me , the whole being in bed with a guy. i wonder wat is he thinking, he say i m skinny and he ask me to massage him. well..of coz there is nothing happen...and he literally ask me 10 times whether i m going o santa cruz. alright then, i have no reason to say no.

and my santa cruz trip, it is just totally awkardness. i don know why kathy is there, and it is like 3 good frd with one odd gal. and the 3 of them are like constantly flirting with each other. and it kinda turn me off in a way. ya, it all boils down to the filthyness of heterosexism. but it doesn matter anywya, i m jsut odd and sick and tired.

it is so much lucas going on. and i eventually told him about i think he look like prince. he ask me" are you a princess?" i say i m not, somehow i feel like a unicon, wonder wat happen if i say i m a princess. and he been so proudly telling everyone i think he look royalty. when he give me that " incredible" face when i eat sushi, i thot he is just another white guy. i wonder where that royalty come from, but it is screaming out from his aura. like, the authority tone in his voice, like that blue eyes and brown hair and fair skin, and the why he keep asking question. he say" i m royalty, so you have to do watever i say." that's how i end up in santa cruz.

and he call me today, ask me how m i, coz he know i m sick. relieved, coz i thot everyone think i m like being antisocial yesterday in the trip fro being so quiet. he is gooing to concert tonight with his ex, i wonder they stil have sex.