ok, i m falling apart.
my period is over, so it is not the problem no more, i m reallly falling apart.
viv ask me wat is my fear.
i cant exactly put it right, but i m fearing every single thing in my life....
i feel so threatened, the thot of it make me feel like crying, but if you ask me wat exactly do i fear, i can tell you nothing....
here, in this blog, i feel threatened, ppl are watching....ppl are listening, ppl are....trying to get something from, jsut part of me, until i fell apart. and no one can put me together again.
i cant sleep, i feell sick, i m threatened. and i know it all but a fucking nightmare i designed in my mind. yet i cant escape, i m still stuck, i never experience this amount of fear, every single minute i feel threatened. i m not sad, i m not suicidal, i m not feeling weak like last time i told you million of time, i m jsut SCARED. every single thing.....
i jsut wan to live, for once i say i wanna live. i m scared, but i wanna live on. but sometime the fear is so great that i thot death might be one peaceful place....can you all jsut let me live, can you don pin me down, can you don do this to me? if i wan to live..i jsut wanna live on....i don wanna die yet.