i m so not excited about tonigt's party, so not excited. for soem reason.....it is stupid, so stupid. the fact that i actulaly did feel like crying last night, it is too crazy.
i m so grateful that violet do so many thing for me, she is a total sweetheart. and i m so not excited about the VU, and i m jsut so not excited about anything got to do with that jerk.
i don like to be called freak.
this dairy is getting lame, i don feel like writing in here anymore, fuck it! i cant be myself anywhere
there are too many secret, too many thing to hide, it sucks! sometime i jsut feel like running away in to this remote part of Paris, get real drunk, dance in a bar, and sleep with whoever cute that get into my way, then the next day jsut sleep and sleep and sleep and get drunk again, and talk very loud, and scream about everything that i so wanna scream about.
i hate this life of secret, it is so wrong! why cant we be honest, and evil, and swear as we want to.
i hate everything! i hate you! you ! you and you!!!!!!!!!!
fuck!
fuck white guys!
fuck asian gals!
fuck americans!