saw my lao po's blog and i m ...i just lost my words....
yap, thanks dear, for loving me sooo much, loving me as a gal and as a guy....and when you love, you hurt. we all know that, yet, we are brave enuff to bear whatever consequences but..to love.dear, you are disappointed, are you? things arent the same anymore....you know what, when it is closest to sun rise, everything change colours....i saw you at JP, i saw the same thing in your eyes as i saw taht on the 174 that day......i know you feel that you are losing me....and i m losing everything......yes, i m losing everything...that paul guy in US knew that i cried sometimes, and he asked"havent you drained all your tears???" yes, he understood......about losing...about leaving...it is like"infernal affairs" wu jian dao......it repeated and repeated.....we are all gonna go thru that in life.....and we will soon realise taht life is such a god damn joke that it repeat itself even though no one think is funny...and slowly....we will learn to laugh at it, that's why adults laugh at jokes we don think are funny....and that is sad......i don know whether it make sense.......i m feeling weak too....too weak to think, too weak to live, i ve spent all my energy to love......if i can, i rather follow the track, i aint no bloody artist and i don paint surreal pictures.....but i m the picture, someone else is painting...