ok, so i get flaked out on lisa's bday party!
i have no idea why but i waited for like 4 hours and she din call, i was directed to voicemail! pls! and then i was so fucking mad! i got flaked out, by lisa acosta!!!and wat i did in the afternoon was like go to the mall and shop for her bday present! i was all excited for a whole week coz i found her back and jsut in time for her bday! and it is like she doesn really care wat the hack happeing to me!!!ok!!!!!i m so fucked up. it is the worst when i was all dressed and ready, waiting to wear my barbie shoe tonight coz i thot is a good chance to be cute coz lisa probably dress cute tonight! so, there goes my barbie shoe!!!
and i was so mad, i called wendy, she was a bit mad for me too. which was quite comforting,but she have to pick up her dad.
then i called two other guys, and jsut tell them im mad i m mad i m mad and i need to tell somebody i m mad.
alright, then i came to theo, that korean guy, jsut wanna tell him i mad. he ask me is it brooke who flake me out, i told him thank god it is not. and he say he is at a movie, he will cal me back later. so like 15 min later he call me back. he told me his gf was mad, he told his gf that i called an he is gonna call me back , then his gf got mad and get out of the theatre! i m so screwed!!!! i m so sorry, i feel so bad you know. oh damn....it is fucked....and he ask me whether i can hang out wiht him now, and i really love to, but i cant get out of the house. i feel so bad......i feel really so bad for him. i m like, no way!!!!i m like the last person for any gal to suspect your bf with!!!!!silly gal, i m not hitting on him!!!!!if i can go out with him i will try to figure out how to pacify her ,but i cant go out....damn....and if i have a car,i ll jsut get him to talk to her, and i ll leave, with nobody need to send me off back home. ( this is one thing that i found out , this patch-up-with-mad-gf waiting service, is like one thing i realy feel good doing to my frd, i did that to liek a lot of my frd, and i did that to wendy. i thot i was so fucking selfless and great last time for doing patch-up-with-mad-gf waiting service, and now i found out it is no big deal, i can do that to anyone...haha....i m disaapointed by myself, adn i feel cheated by myself haha,but i m still a nice gal...)
oh no....i m screwed and i screw ppl's life.....
but anyway, i think i shouldn be mad with lisa, i think there is a probability that she got too drunk at the wedding, and she just cant get herself out. see, pretty gals....pretty gal make me lose my fucking mind. i m sure i wont feel so screwed if it is not lisa ok, she is the preettiest gal in bakersfield, n i realy think so. and she flaked me out today!