i m sad....i think i m such a bitch!!!!
this is the second time i feel like a bitch and this is for a second reason...does it prove taht i m really really a BITCH???
i don know what i want, i m scared....things get out of control, i m losing the game. i set rules in the first place, but in the end, it is all out of control....no more rules, no more limits......i m dead......
i don know waht i want.....i really don know...it is not to be forgiven yet i m jsut too weak to forgive myself.....

well.... the rumour eventually spread to LEP teacher, haha, wei lao shi was like so interested.....he even says" hum..he is a good boy.." walao eh!!!!!!then i think from now on wei lao shi will start OCing in LEP lessons...sigh,......i wan2 dan4 liao!
anyway, i only have 1 week left....

chinese high have relaly freaky ghost story....esp the babies one.....xiya was shaking in my arms, so poor thing, but the guys just have to continue talking.....anyway, yap, and there was this jogging lady walk pass us three time...

i m relatively low today......yap....i m too weak........and some ppl know the way to soften me....and i get even weaker, i don know waht i m doing.....

when jesus says....forgive them, for they dont know what they are doing.....if i have to be a sinner in order to be forgiven, m i included?